But Sister Jude had no intention of caning the couple. “I think a more reliable step needs to be taken,” she said. “Sterilization. For the both of you.” Yes, it did seem rather extreme, but before the matter could go one step further, Sister Jude had to tend to the detectives grilling Arden, and commanded Sister Mary and Frank to place Kit and Grace in solitary confinement. Sister Mary, that little devil, delayed executing the order so she could Kit alone and enlighten him to the truth about Grace’s backstory. “She’s not the innocent girl she claims to be,” she said. Sister Mary opened Grace’s file – a proverbial apple, filled with knowledge of Grace’s good and evil. If this was a temptation to be resisted, Kit failed. And so he read.
In solitary, Grace and Kit could communicate through the wall that separated them, and Grace was eager to know that everything between them was still crazy-sexy-cool. It wasn’t. Kit now knew her truth, and he was pissed that she hadn't been honest with him. “You want to hear I’m sorry!? I’m not sorry for what I’ve done,” she said defensively. She missed the point. Kit didn't want to give her judgment. He wanted to give her grace. But like Thredson, he had a condition: She had to be honest. And so she told her story again. Correctly. Her father had sexually abused her. Repeatedly. She tried to cope by detaching and disassociating, watching him rape her as if she was “a stranger or a corpse.” She tried to tell her stepmom. Her stepmom gave her candy to keep her silent. The horses provided escape… until the day her father sold them all. That was the day she snapped and chopped him up. Stepmom/Collaborator, too.
“That's when I opened my eyes and saw my life for what it was. And there was no turning back,” she said. “Have I opened your eyes, Kit? Are you repulsed by way I am?” She asked this crucial question in a shot that allowed us to see both characters in their cells, the stone wall between then. No, Kit wasn’t repulsed by Grace. “I admire you.” As he said those words, Grace put her hand to the wall, as if trying to touch Kit, hoping he’d feel touched. And we remember the Robert Frost poem that kept Lana Winters sane, “Mending Wall,” and it’s rebuke of the notion that “good fences make good neighbors.” No: Grace does.
What motivated Kit to take the action he took next? Grace’s example of damning herself to pursue justice? Did he want to save his skin so he could stay with her? Or had he bought into Thredson’s Bloody Face narrative? His eyes red and puffy from crying and struggle, Kit told Sister Jude that he wanted to confess. “I’m not a very religious man, but I did go to Sunday school and I was told that God sees everything. Is that true?” Sister Jude said it was true – and she flashed on the memory of the night she ran down The Innocent, the little girl, and drove away. Yes, Judy. God saw that, too. And He's been waiting for you to properly atone. Kit reasoned that if God sees all and knows all, then He must have seen him kill those women, and He must know that he murdered Alma. He must have done those horrible things, he said, because it’s the only explanation that made sense. (Yes, Kit, but who gave you that sense?”)
Kit said he needed forgiveness. He asked – begged – Sister Jude to help him find God so he could confess his sins. She stood to comfort him, but she couldn't minister to him, not with any integrity. How could Kit be saved if he couldn't remember the sins he was confessing? And how valid was her own so-called redemption, given that this Bride of Christ could vividly remember her worst sin, but could not -- would not -- confess it? If only she had a gracious friend who could listen without judging.
Sister: Get thee to the Mending Wall!
And with that: Cliffhanger! Will Kit go nuts? Will he lose his nuts? Will Dr. Thredson get Lana out of The Asylum – and if he does, what will he do to her? Will "Anne Frank" expose Dr. Arden's monstrous past and monster-making present? Or will the slippery little devil find some way to squirt free? These questions to be in part two of "I Am Anne Frank" next week. In the meantime, a few ADDITIONAL QUESTIONS AND THEORIES:
+Who is Anne Frank for real? My pet theory: A Nazi hunter working a very deep, very strange cover.
+Do you think Dr. Arden is really Anne’s Hans Gruber? Or is he really just a Nazi fanboy mad scientist from Scottsdale?
+The scene that immediately followed Anne’s introduction took us into Dr. Arden’s lab, where Newly Legless Shelley writhed on the madhouse Mengele’s operating room table as the bad doctor prepared to inject her eyeballs with mystery serum. She had acquired some scabies-like skin abrasions since we saw her last week. She asked Arden if he was going to kill her. “Not exactly,” he said. “In fact, after this, you’ll probably live forever.” Did this line do anything to change your thoughts as to Dr. Arden’s secret project? I still think he’s trying to cure Original Sin and correct with science the condition wrought by the Fall of Man, i.e., mortality. Which would mean, of course, that the Arden is a closeted man faith. Theories?